win some, lose some

weigh in:  158.6 lbs.
gain of: 2.6 pounds
total gain of: 3.6 pounds

Well, that didn't go so well.  Somehow this morning when I stepped on the scale I was hoping all would be magically forgiven and the scale god's would look on me with pity and give me a loss.  Wishful thinking, and completely delusional. lol! :)  

I am pretty sure my need for a break is over and I am done.  Sometimes for me I need to see such an increase to get it through my thick skull, if that makes sense?  We are on this road alone and can only do this for ourselves and ourselves alone.  How we do this thing is up to us, and don't let anyone tell you you are failing because of a waver in the wrong direction.  This diet is insanely difficult- anyone tries to tell you differently you can tell them to go fly a kite. :)  If you have the guts to stick to such a strict diet the pay off is incredible!  But it is most certainly not magic or easy and we have to work just as hard as anyone else in this battle against the bulge.  All I can say is I am not giving up!  Yes, I was beaten this morning and wish I could rewind to yesterday morning and tell my past self to buck up and quit while you're ahead.  But, even if this was possible I am almost certain I would not listen to my future self anyway.

Anyway, as the saying goes:  "You win some, you lose some."  And I think it is also said that in the losing rather than the winning more can be learned about oneself.  Here is to getting back to it and hitting my goal: 145!  145!  I can do it, I can do it!!!

Happy HCGing!