Tomorrow will be Day 19. I am fading fast, more than I would really like to admit. This round has kicked my butt. I am going to ask all my wonderful readers and fellow HCGer's out there one simple question: What if? What if a person does not go the full 23 days? What happens? Yeah, yeah- I know I am almost there, but seriously I just don't want to keep doing this to myself... It is another 8 days really if you add the 3 maximum days and 7 days if you add a max of 2 days after discontinuing HCG. I was thinking of just taking it easy through the rest of the year and then doing a third round in January. My hope is that I would be ready for round 3 and therefore able to really focus and get down to a possible 129 pounds??? That would be another 18 pounds from what I weigh now. When I work out the numbers it is a little disheartening. Still 18 pounds to go, phewwww! If, somehow I can continue on round 2, I won't do another round (unless I really screw things up and gain an exorbitant amount of weight back- *knock on wood,* please :)). If, somehow I can get down to 139- that would be it for me, theoretically and based on the moment right at this time. But, if I do end up doing a third round I would hope I could stick to it with greater ease and therefore lose at least 18 pounds.
I feel like crying right now, because I feel like I have failed. I feel like I should be able to do this and yet I am fighting myself so furiously. I am seriously struggling so badly during this round. Do I just need to suck it up and get through the next 7 days minimum? Or, can I call it good? And, from everyone's experience is round 3 easier? I mean, even just a tad more easy and I would be happy! I know things that are worth while don't come easy, but.... jeez!
Oh, by the way, because I am sure everyone is wondering what happened on the scale this morning- I only lost 0.2 pounds. I followed everything precisely! I screamed while standing on the scale. : { Please talk me out of this! :) Maybe I should just go until Friday and then see what happens? Except I gave in and ate 3 caramels a couple hours ago. :( I don't know what it is about the caramel!
I don't get your math. You need to do at least 21 days plus the 72 hours after the last dose weight (otherwise you'll have problems resetting the hypothalamus). So if I understand correctly, Saturday would be your last dose day. If you're doing shots, that means you start P3 the morning of the 13th, so just 5 more days of VLCD. If you're doing SL, then the evening of the 13th you could start P3.
ReplyDeleteI would suggest you go back and read through this blog. You will lose that feeling of being a failure FAST. You are a ROCK STAR!
oh my gosh girl, don't beat yourself up! This isn't an easy gig ... and you ARE a rock star and so not a failure. You are doing it!
ReplyDeleteI just started following your blog. Oh hon, don't give up yet!!! You are SO close! Think about how far you have come, is 8 more days really SO much you can't handle it? Just think, even if you only lose 4 more pounds in those 8 days, you are SO much closer to your ultimate goal. You can do it! it's just one bad day....you can do it! Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteOh, and I say, if you eat a caramel, oh-well. Just do better the next day. (I eat 3 almond hershey's kisses everyday! and am still losing!)
Megan in Utah