Wednesday, October 7, 2009

What if?

Tomorrow will be Day 19. I am fading fast, more than I would really like to admit. This round has kicked my butt. I am going to ask all my wonderful readers and fellow HCGer's out there one simple question: What if? What if a person does not go the full 23 days? What happens? Yeah, yeah- I know I am almost there, but seriously I just don't want to keep doing this to myself... It is another 8 days really if you add the 3 maximum days and 7 days if you add a max of 2 days after discontinuing HCG. I was thinking of just taking it easy through the rest of the year and then doing a third round in January. My hope is that I would be ready for round 3 and therefore able to really focus and get down to a possible 129 pounds??? That would be another 18 pounds from what I weigh now. When I work out the numbers it is a little disheartening. Still 18 pounds to go, phewwww! If, somehow I can continue on round 2, I won't do another round (unless I really screw things up and gain an exorbitant amount of weight back- *knock on wood,* please :)). If, somehow I can get down to 139- that would be it for me, theoretically and based on the moment right at this time. But, if I do end up doing a third round I would hope I could stick to it with greater ease and therefore lose at least 18 pounds.

I feel like crying right now, because I feel like I have failed. I feel like I should be able to do this and yet I am fighting myself so furiously. I am seriously struggling so badly during this round. Do I just need to suck it up and get through the next 7 days minimum? Or, can I call it good? And, from everyone's experience is round 3 easier? I mean, even just a tad more easy and I would be happy! I know things that are worth while don't come easy, but.... jeez!

Oh, by the way, because I am sure everyone is wondering what happened on the scale this morning- I only lost 0.2 pounds. I followed everything precisely! I screamed while standing on the scale. : { Please talk me out of this! :) Maybe I should just go until Friday and then see what happens? Except I gave in and ate 3 caramels a couple hours ago. :( I don't know what it is about the caramel!


  1. I don't get your math. You need to do at least 21 days plus the 72 hours after the last dose weight (otherwise you'll have problems resetting the hypothalamus). So if I understand correctly, Saturday would be your last dose day. If you're doing shots, that means you start P3 the morning of the 13th, so just 5 more days of VLCD. If you're doing SL, then the evening of the 13th you could start P3.

    I would suggest you go back and read through this blog. You will lose that feeling of being a failure FAST. You are a ROCK STAR!

  2. oh my gosh girl, don't beat yourself up! This isn't an easy gig ... and you ARE a rock star and so not a failure. You are doing it!

  3. I just started following your blog. Oh hon, don't give up yet!!! You are SO close! Think about how far you have come, is 8 more days really SO much you can't handle it? Just think, even if you only lose 4 more pounds in those 8 days, you are SO much closer to your ultimate goal. You can do it! it's just one bad can do it! Hang in there!
    Oh, and I say, if you eat a caramel, oh-well. Just do better the next day. (I eat 3 almond hershey's kisses everyday! and am still losing!)
    Megan in Utah