Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Today is the day

I woke up this morning and all of the sudden decided today is the day.  What am I waiting for?  Apparently, I needed to address what happened and move on.  I learned what I could and appreciated that part of my journey.

So, I hopped on the scale:  165.0 pounds

Crazy stable, right?!  So here I go and now all that is left to do is keep on blogging and fighting every day to get to where I want to be.

I am also thinking the concept behind this blog will now be something like:  Going Against the Grain

It has multiple meanings for me in particular.  Obviously, a paleo-diet implication.  It also speaks to my recent deviations from majority held beliefs and actions.  I want to be able to continue to talk about all the things that create passion within me while sharing my personal story.


Edit to add:  Just wanted to share.  As I typed this post this morning I noticed certain feelings...  For the first time in awhile I feel an odd sense of hope and energy to take on the day.  I have been kind of stuck in a rut and going through a smiling depression.  My thoughts have been a prison and for today I feel a certain freedom.  I have been sitting down and today I feel a desire to make steps towards some of the goals I have only been pining for.  I don't feel my usual kind of melancholy pity.  I hope I can hold onto this lightness, but for now I am going to indulge these feelings of motivation and excitement and get on with the day.  So I will leave this computer and see where the day leads me.   

    
 

2 comments:

  1. I've been in your shoes recently both with the scale and protocol. I'm so proud you are moving forward with the determination to do it on your own.

    I was all gung-ho at the beginning of the month. I let life get to me and it showed on the scale. After mentally beating myself up, I decided to end the month on a good note. I jumped back into my routine. I was up 13 lbs from my maintaining weight. Now, I'm 6 lbs away.

    It's nice to see you back!

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  2. You sound great! I loved this post and your earlier post today. You seem to be in a good place, and have earned it!

    So nice to see you back here and sharing- I've missed you!!

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