Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Today is the day

I woke up this morning and all of the sudden decided today is the day.  What am I waiting for?  Apparently, I needed to address what happened and move on.  I learned what I could and appreciated that part of my journey.

So, I hopped on the scale:  165.0 pounds

Crazy stable, right?!  So here I go and now all that is left to do is keep on blogging and fighting every day to get to where I want to be.

I am also thinking the concept behind this blog will now be something like:  Going Against the Grain

It has multiple meanings for me in particular.  Obviously, a paleo-diet implication.  It also speaks to my recent deviations from majority held beliefs and actions.  I want to be able to continue to talk about all the things that create passion within me while sharing my personal story.

Edit to add:  Just wanted to share.  As I typed this post this morning I noticed certain feelings...  For the first time in awhile I feel an odd sense of hope and energy to take on the day.  I have been kind of stuck in a rut and going through a smiling depression.  My thoughts have been a prison and for today I feel a certain freedom.  I have been sitting down and today I feel a desire to make steps towards some of the goals I have only been pining for.  I don't feel my usual kind of melancholy pity.  I hope I can hold onto this lightness, but for now I am going to indulge these feelings of motivation and excitement and get on with the day.  So I will leave this computer and see where the day leads me.   



  1. I've been in your shoes recently both with the scale and protocol. I'm so proud you are moving forward with the determination to do it on your own.

    I was all gung-ho at the beginning of the month. I let life get to me and it showed on the scale. After mentally beating myself up, I decided to end the month on a good note. I jumped back into my routine. I was up 13 lbs from my maintaining weight. Now, I'm 6 lbs away.

    It's nice to see you back!

  2. You sound great! I loved this post and your earlier post today. You seem to be in a good place, and have earned it!

    So nice to see you back here and sharing- I've missed you!!